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| Monday, December 11th, 2006 | | 10:40 pm |
I must give the impression
That I have the answers for everything
You were so disappointed
To see me unravel so easily
It's only change
It's only everything I know
It's only change, and I'm only changing...
You want something that's constant
And I only wanted to be me
But, watch, even the stars above
Things that seem still are still changing--- BTW: Vile Wench [Leah] says:Oooh, Cat's a badass. >> Bad Wolf says:I am? ;.; =D I love it when my girl makes me laugh out loud, even at her own expense. ;) Current Music: Ben Folds- Still | | Sunday, June 18th, 2006 | | 6:45 pm |
Hey good looking, why the frown?
You always look better when it's upside down
You say you got nowhere that you're going to
Can I go nowhere with you? Current Music: Joel Plaskett- Nowhere With You | | Friday, June 2nd, 2006 | | 3:48 pm |
 =D | | Monday, May 1st, 2006 | | 8:03 pm |
Me to Cat, wishing she wouldn't always put a negative swing on things. She's my little pessimist; always expecting the worst. Silly Cat. Take a leap of faith. Who knows? Optimism might suit you. You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all that's wrong instead of all that's right
Does it feel good to you to lean on my parade
You never say a word unless it's to complain
It's driving me insane
If I were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars for all that I have
If I were you
Look at what's around you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten how just hard it used to be?
So what's it going to take for you to realize
That all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time
If I were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
Tell the world I love that I do
Yeah, if I were you
Yeah, if I were you
If I were you
If I were you
So what's it going to take for you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time
If I were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
For the world I love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I wanna do
If I were you
If I were you
If I were you Current Music: Hoobastank- If I Were You | | Friday, January 13th, 2006 | | 10:28 pm |
| | Wednesday, December 14th, 2005 | | 5:25 pm |
OMG GUYZ! I have a New Year's Resolution! It is this (written in the third and second person because I'm hip enough to pull it off): Stop being emo, Pocket! Stop letting stupid tiny things irk you. Stop ranting about idiots 'cos it just brings you to their level. Be happy! (I know it's in me to be happy.) Be fun and witty and hyper like you have been lately, you're doing so good. Don't be mad, be glad! Be as great a dæmon as possible. Be nicer to Cat (but not too nice or it'll confuse her and we do so love a good argument <3). Don't get stressed about stuff so easily. Don't get stressed about settling. Don't get stressed about your name (everyone says it's awesome and not to change it). In general: be positive. No more whiny, irritable, negative, emo Pocket! Yay. That's it! My Resolution and come hell or high water I will do my best to abide by it. These past few months ... have just been so good. No arguing. No yelling at each other. I finally feel ... like me. Catty and I have been getting along so well. It's like we're enjoying each other's presence, appreciating one another, every day, and that's how it should be. How I love putting a smile on my girl's face by saying something witty or doing something stupid. ^^; I don't feel pissed or depressed. I feel ... happy. I feel excited! I feel like I want to jump up and down and bark at stuff and turn around in tight circles 'til I get dizzy, which I've done before, and when you're a clumsy quadruped doing that isn't really smart but I don't care. I feel like I want to run around and jump on stuff and howl really loudly. And I think I will, 'cause I'm not corporeal, and no one but Cat can laugh at me when I make a fool of myself. Life is good! And for the first time I feel like I can keep it good. | | Saturday, November 26th, 2005 | | 4:09 pm |
Felt like updating. But with what? Not like I have many opinions to share. Well, okay, I have an opinion on just about everything, but I'm not gonna be like, "Hm, listened to 'Last Resort' yesterday, that is one bitchin' song, homies." Pfft. What I have to say in here is gonna be a little more exciting than that. Mindless drivel is for Cat's LJ. Cat: Thanks. And of course I usually update caught up in some nasty rage that makes me out to be an OMGEMO among other things. When in actuality I'm not like that. All the time. Sometimes I am. Sometimes. Most of the time I'm quite happy. But I'm not going to update with, "I chased a bird today and it flew away! It was awesome," either. Chasing birds makes me happy, but not enough to update. :) To be happy enough to update ... well. That'd have to be something big that relates to me directly. Like what, I don't know. So what was the point of this entry? ... There was none. Like I said, I just felt like updating. Heheh. | | Tuesday, October 11th, 2005 | | 1:06 pm |
Number of times we've heard Julian put down Colt (who lives in what Kenz and Cat affectionately refer to as Povertyland): 6 Things we've heard him call Colt: - mutt - poverty-ridden jackass - the "lower class", as in "I don't associate myself with the lower class" - "that poor kid" - Does-he-really-think-he-can-get-to-law-s chool-financially Hm, maybe Sabpreet was more right than we thought about Julian being such a jackass. Number of times Laura has overheard these comments, and responded by either hitting his arm or telling him to shut up: 5 She didn't say anything about the lower class comment, probably because he doesn't realize how insanely hurtful it was, as Julian is a prep kid with a lot of money, and Laura's more like comfortably middle class, but significantly lower class than Julian. Even though he was talking about Colt, she could've taken it personally and if back then she felt as strongly for him as she does now, she might have figured Julian would never consider her as a potential girlfriend, just because her family isn't well-off. Julian is such a rich bitch, and Cat and I never realized. o.O | | Monday, October 10th, 2005 | | 8:14 pm |
Celtic needs a LiveJournal. Let's all stare at him till he gets one. ::stares:: That's right, mutt. You'd better get one. | | Sunday, October 9th, 2005 | | 2:39 pm |
Strangely I can see all of these fitting quite nicely ... Just switch around Rome and Dingo. ... Oh, and Rookie. ;) That ain't right. | | Friday, September 30th, 2005 | | 4:13 pm |
Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise
'Cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough
And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you
'Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me?
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
And now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
You went and saved the best for last Current Music: Vanessa Williams- Save the Best for Last | | Wednesday, September 21st, 2005 | | 3:54 pm |
... Of course I'm an emo ... I am her emotions, they have to go somewhere ... But when she's depressed and not showing it, how can I comfort her while at the same time I reflect those unhappy feelings she's bottling up inside? ::confuses self:: | | Sunday, September 11th, 2005 | | 2:24 pm |
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me? Current Music: Simple Plan- Untitled | | Thursday, September 8th, 2005 | | 7:39 pm |
Just a weird MSN convo between me and Lawrence. =P It's in third person, because ... that's the way it went. Lawrence: "Either way, what're you doing again?" Cat: "Still on the DF ..." Cat: "... and talking to the Nazi Foxy." Lawrence: "Who is ..." Cat: "Pocket." Lawrence: "HI POCKET!" Pocket: "HEY LARRY!" Lawrence: "Larry's not here." Lawrence: "And I know I'm not Larry cus he's super smart and in gr.11." Lawrence: "And he's Asian." Pocket: "I see." Lawrence: "Come to think about it, that's all I really know about him." Pocket: "Larry is a retarded name." Lawrence: "But the kid is cool." Lawrence: "And I agree with that, too." Lawrence: "Either way, I dunno why, but I thought I could see you while watching The Lion King today first period." Pocket: "Oh? Cool." =) Lawrence: "Cat drew you, then we were watching The Lion King, then I saw you out of the corner of my eye, so I looked, and then you were gone." Lawrence: "It was right after the "Scar is a Nazi and Mr. Whiteside is Ed" comment." Pocket: "Awesome." o.o Pocket: "What form did you see me in?" Lawrence: "Silver fox." Pocket: "Do you know what I was doing? ... where I was? I'm interested." Lawrence: "I saw you like, sitting, on the ground, next to Cat." Lawrence: "And I saw you for like 2 seconds so I looked directly at you and poof, you were gone." Pocket: "Hm, pretty good." Lawrence: "Hm?" Pocket: "I was a silver fox, and during that portion of the song I was sitting next to Cat." Lawrence: "Woah! so I probably did see you." Lawrence: "That's freaking crazy." Pocket: "I agree." Lawrence: "How is it possible, though?" Pocket: "No idea." Pocket: "It might've been a lucky guess, though - you knowing that I'm usually a fox, and most likely sitting next to Cat. But still." Lawrence: "No, I swear I could see you." Pocket: "Very interesting." --- The part of the movie he was talking about was during Scar's song, "Be Prepared". For most of the first half I was prowling around in front of Cat's desk and singing along, but after awhile I got tired and sat down next to her. And he made the Nazi comment right when I sat down. I thought this could be laid down to coincidence, but he actually says he saw me, so ... I thought it cool that he got my form and position right and everything. Maybe he did see me. o.o | | Saturday, August 27th, 2005 | | 6:18 pm |
More pictures of me - that's what the world needs! Kate and Tim are gonna make me so pretty. =D I'm excited. Aaanywho, I've been finding that a form I'm starting to enjoy myself in is a black squirrel. ::grin:: I like myself in this form for some reason. I'm quick and agile and I love having black fur. Rawr. Current Music: TISM- Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me | | Tuesday, July 19th, 2005 | | 3:49 pm |
I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I
Let go, watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand, I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am
What you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I
Let go, watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
No!
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now!
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now!
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored!
I can't feel ...
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal ...
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored! Current Music: Linkin Park- Faint | | Sunday, June 26th, 2005 | | 4:46 pm |
Drink up baby down
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me, too busy, you're writing a tragedy
These mess-ups
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And then advances with the form
So, honey, back for more
Can't you see that all the stuff's essential?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can wait
You roll your eyes
We've twenty seconds to comply
So, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown Current Music: Frou Frou- Let Go | | Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005 | | 7:50 pm |
Bryan Adams and Phil Collins ... I can't figure it out. Cat says there's something about their voices that makes her think of me. What? Did I miss something? Last I checked, my voice fit with Ben Kowalewicz's - punkrock, loud, hyper and high. But of course, the King of Thieves isn't always singing along to punkrock songs. ;) So I guess these guys have a calming voice with a rough-ish edge. Or, they do to Cat. Yeah, that does kinda sound like me. I really like this song. It describes the bond I have with Cat really well. Especially when she's depressed. Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always
Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all
And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know
When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more
Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always--- I'm feeling better now. The settling thing? I'll deal with it when the time to settle comes. At the moment I'm just struggling to balance time equally between my top three forms. Unintentionally, really. I try to stay in one form, but ... ::shrug:: No real reason for updating, except that I felt like it. Haha. =P Current Music: Phil Collins- You'll Be In My Heart | | Saturday, June 18th, 2005 | | 12:34 pm |
I'm sick of it, sick of it. At this point I just want to settle and be over and done with this messed-up changing-forms thing. I don't want to change forms anymore. I want to be me, one form, forever. But no dæmon can just force themself to settle ... ... can they? I think I really screwed up with the silver-black fox form. Cat admired it quietly for a bit and then told me, "I like this form. Think you can hang onto it?" and I said, "Cat, I'll be a fox for as long as you want me to be." What should I have said? No, too bad? I'm not supposed to be a fox, not really. But that leaves ... what? This weird hybrid form? I don't want a hybrid form. I want to say, I'm Japoro, or I'm a mongoose, not caught between. But what the hell else can I do if a mix of the two describes Cat best? Things were so simple when we thought I was meant to be a mongoose! And Border collie ... jeez. I've thought that over like crazy ... like chewing on a stone until you've worn it down to dust. Cat pointed out that she isn't a hard worker, but I know better. Put a Border collie in a field in Yorkshire and tell him to herd the sheep down the hill, and he'll do it quite happily. Put a Border collie in New York and tell him he's Mr Trump's new marketing executive and he'll probably be an unhappy puppy. Border collies are meant for certain tasks, and Cat's meant for writing. She pushes herself hard to finish off this one scene, or reach the end of that chapter. She can write twelve pages a day when she works hard - and she does work hard. And there are other things she works hard for. Once she sets a goal, she'll be bound and determined to follow it through. And all that other Border collie jazz, that fits well, too. But, see, I'm not so sure if Border collie suits me. It might sound stupid, or selfish, but it's really true. As a mongoose or a fox it just looks good if I give a sly smile or anything. But Border collie ... I think I'm the clumsiest dæmon around. -.- I've fallen off desks, walked into walls, and tripped over my own paws - once into Cat's pool. THREE times I have taken a running leap onto one of those green electricity boxes and slid right off to fall flat on my face. And once, while trying to walk underneath a Canada Post mailbox, I went into between those posts that hold it upright - tight squeeze - and I got stuck. Yeah. So while Cat may be a graceful athlete and rarely trip up (except for that one time she was looking at a hot guy and her jacket got caught on a chair and she nearly fell over - I will never let her forget that), the truth is I'm a clumsy guy, and while it might look amusing if I do those things when I'm a fox, in the form of such a beautiful dog, I feel ridiculous. I think I'm doomed to feel like a joke for the rest of my life, anyway. With a name like Pocket ...? How the hell did I end up with that name anyway? Of all names? Cat didn't name me ... did I really name myself Pocket? Sure, there are times I'm quite proud of my name, but other times .... I dunno. It's a weird name. Hardly even a name. Pocket. Bah. Pandareos is too long for that to be my regular name. Maybe I could take another, nicer name out of Pandareos. Like Reo. Yeah. I like that. ...Aw, Cat's never gonna call me Reo. >> She's too used to calling me Pocket, anyway. Pocket ... jeez. ::fed up:: And aside from feeling like a walking joke for the rest of my life, I have to choose the smallest forms to want to settle as. No offence, but I don't want to end up in Rookie's position. =\ (At least he's got a good name. ><) Cat could always fall for a guy with a mustelid dæmon ... but we've met loads of weasels, ferrets, martens, etc, and she's not too interested in any o' those. With my luck I'll probably end up with a beautiful Arctic wolf or a tiger for a soul mate. ::sob:: Her human might like Cat but how could such a great animal want to spend the rest of her life with me? I'm such an emo. ::sigh:: | | Thursday, June 16th, 2005 | | 10:00 am |
Hell Hath No Fury
Sometimes I hate her because she's just so ... so stupid. I wanted to snarl and snap and tell her what a pathetic little emo she is, but Cat did that for me. The one thing that gets on Cat's nerves ... really gets to her ... and she couldn't drop it! She knew what she was doing! Eurgh! It pisses me off! And the sad thing is, she was just fishing for sympathy. That's why she wouldn't let it go. She wanted us to pity her and tell her how sympathetic we are. Well, we're not. So just go to hell! Fuck's sake! Right now, I wish us dæmons were corporeal. Because I would hunt hers down today and attack him. I don't care how much bigger than me he is, I don't care if it's his girl's fault and not his, hell, I would claw out his fucking eyes. Just when we go back to leaving everything behind us and moving on with life she springs up asking for help and advice about that one subject we want to banish from our mind forever. And I could see Cat getting edgy - I warned that emo - but still she had to dog us about it. " I don't care if discussing this makes you uncomfortable, I want us to talk about this so you can pity and reassure me when I don't even need it." So Cat snapped. Told 'er she would. And then the defensivesness ... God, I would love my teeth to meet in that dæmon's throat right now. ::fuming:: Maybe I'll cool down later. It's just that I've been mulling over this and it gets to me that she had to keep attacking my girl about it - and she knew perfectly well what she was doing. Just ... piss off. ::growl:: I need to get my mind off this. I think I'll go home and mull this over
Before I cram it down my throat
At long last it's crashed, the colossal mass
Has broken up into bits in my moat.
Lift the mattress off the floor
Walk the cramps off
Go meander in the cold
Hail to your dark skin
Hiding the fact you're dead again
Underneath the power lines seeking shade
Far above our heads are the icy heights that contain all reason
It's a luscious mix of words and tricks
That let us bet when you know we should fold
On rocks I dreamt of where we'd stepped
And the whole mess of roads we're now on.
Hold your glass up, hold it in
Never betray the way you've always known it is.
One day I'll be wondering how
I got so old just wondering how
I never got cold wearing nothing in the snow.
This is way beyond my remote concern
Of being condescending
All these squawking birds won't quit.
Building nothing, laying bricks. Current Music: The Shins- Caring is Creepy |
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